I should be packing the last item in my carry-on bag and checking that I have enough changes of clean underwear 😉
But, I’m not. I emptied what I’d already packed and put away my bags last night.
I should be checking into my flight on the American Airlines app.
But, I’m not. I canceled my flight yesterday.
I should be flying out of Charlotte tomorrow morning at 9:40 and landing in Cincinnati around 11:30am.
But, I’m not. I’ll be home in Monroe instead.
Three friends and I began planning this trip in January. We met when we started Flourish Writers Academy at the beginning of 2021 (part of Flourish Writers). After we got connected and started meeting regularly outside of academy events to talk about our writing and to share prayer requests and praises, we decided to travel from our home states (NC, FL, CA, and MI), spend the weekend of April 30-May 2 together in Cincinnati, and attend Flourish Writers LIVE on May 1.
But we aren’t.
One friend tested positive for Covid-19 this past Monday and began the necessary 10-day quarantine.
Another friend’s mom fell over the weekend and had surgery for her injuries on Tuesday. Our friend decided she needed to stay with her mom to help in her recovery.
That left two of us.
Officially, we could have still gone. But part of the reason we were so excited about going was to get to meet each other in person and spend time together. When it became obvious that everyone couldn’t go, she and I decided we’d cancel our plans as well.
Let’s be honest: We really didn’t cancel our plans though.
At this point, I don’t know His reason for doing it. I may never know why, or He may reveal it at some future time.
But, I can tell you this, I am at peace with it.
I eagerly anticipated this trip since I bought my plane ticket in March. I was looking forward to the content of the writers conference itself. I was also excited to meet Mindy and Jenny – the women who created Flourish Writers and who would lead the event. I was looking forward to being refreshed, encouraged, and inspired anew in my writing.
However, I trust God. If this trip didn’t happen, it was for my good – it was for the good of my three friends as well. There was something else we needed to do this weekend or something God was protecting us from. Or it just wasn’t in God’s timing for us to go right now. Or some other reason that only God knows.
Has God ever canceled your plans?
Maybe it was something relatively small like my current example – a weekend trip with friends.
Or maybe it was something big.
You expected to be married by a certain age, but you’re still single.
You assumed marriage would last forever, but you’re divorced.
You planned to have children, but you’re still childless.
You thought your child would stay on the right path but now he or she is wayward.
You wanted a certain job or a promotion, but those doors haven’t opened.
You thought a move to a new house or a new town or a new state would make things better, but the move didn’t happen or your situation didn’t change even when your address did.
God cancels plans.
God changes plans.
God makes new plans.
The next time God cancels your plans, it’s ok to be disappointed. It’s ok to be upset or even angry. It’s ok to cry. It’s ok to scream. But don’t stay in that dry, dreary place.
Take some time in quiet to talk with Him. You can express your feelings. God can handle your anger, frustration, or hurt feelings. He isn’t surprised by your response. In fact, He already knows how you feel; he’s just waiting for you to talk to Him about it so He can show you what He has planned instead.
Ask Him to reveal to you why you missed the opportunity. Why things didn’t go according to your plan. Then wait and listen to what He has to say. Ask Him to help you accept what He has to say. Ask Him to help you trust Him more. Ask Him to help you with your unbelief. He is faithful to hear His children and to respond when we cry out to Him.